I’m so sorry Gerbil.
No matter how much I dearly wish I could, I know there is nothing I can say that will take away the pain and anger. Just know that you and Bird are in my prayers.
I know this hasn’t been, and won’t be, easy in any way, shape, or form. If you need someone to talk to, or even just to have someone listen to a rant so you can get it out of your system, I’m here.
Take the time to grieve in your own way, don’t rush yourself into doing more than you absolutely have to. I pray that you and Bird can get some much needed rest.
I know it can sometimes feel hurtful when people try to give you scripture as a way of minimizing grief, so I hope this coveys it’s intended purpose of hope amidst the pain and not a dismissing of the pain you feel right now.
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50 I tell you this, brothers: flesh and blood cannot inherit the kingdom of God, nor does the perishable inherit the imperishable.
51 Behold! I tell you a mystery. We shall not all sleep, but we shall all be changed,
52 in a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trumpet. For the trumpet will sound, and the dead will be raised imperishable, and we shall be changed.
53 For this perishable body must put on the imperishable, and this mortal body must put on immortality.
54 When the perishable puts on the imperishable, and the mortal puts on immortality, then shall come to pass the saying that is written: “Death is swallowed up in victory.”
55 “O death, where is your victory? O death, where is your sting?”
56 The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law.
57 But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.
58 Therefore, my beloved brothers, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, knowing that in the Lord your labor is not in vain.”
With all the love I can convey over text, please take care of yourselves as best you can my brother in Christ