Hey folks,
So, as you may have seen, my life has changed dramatically in the last half a year. I've moved cross country (back to a city I said I would never return to at that), moved away from family, started a new job, been quite sick a couple times, got a place of my own, got involved in a church, got engaged, still trying to be a full-time student and yet barely making requirements, and the list goes on. So much in my life is amazing even if not everything is, and I know beyond doubt that I am truly blessed beyond measure even when circumstances get tough.
Lately, though, the last two weeks or so, I've realized I'm quite depressed. Seems like all the stress (even "good stress") has been catching up with me, weighing on me. I told my fiancee earlier that I've forgotten how to have fun, that I'm always serious and somber now, and hardly anything like the me I know.
At first, I thought I was just tired, and I hoped it would go away, but it hasn't. I'm overly sensitive right now, overly serious, struggle to enjoy things, struggle to get out of bed.
Heck, I was on Facebook when I saw a pic of a puppy and the caption, "he may only be in your life for a while, but you are his whole life," and had to restrain tears for who knows what reason.
I've started talking with people I trust about this, and I've been praying for a solution, or recovery for lack of a better word, and hoping for its haste. It's really taking its toll on me, and it's no longer just me who's being affected by it. Unfortunately, I can't afford to see a professional right now, but I can ask for your prayers for God giving me myself back.
Thanks, friends.
So, as you may have seen, my life has changed dramatically in the last half a year. I've moved cross country (back to a city I said I would never return to at that), moved away from family, started a new job, been quite sick a couple times, got a place of my own, got involved in a church, got engaged, still trying to be a full-time student and yet barely making requirements, and the list goes on. So much in my life is amazing even if not everything is, and I know beyond doubt that I am truly blessed beyond measure even when circumstances get tough.
Lately, though, the last two weeks or so, I've realized I'm quite depressed. Seems like all the stress (even "good stress") has been catching up with me, weighing on me. I told my fiancee earlier that I've forgotten how to have fun, that I'm always serious and somber now, and hardly anything like the me I know.
At first, I thought I was just tired, and I hoped it would go away, but it hasn't. I'm overly sensitive right now, overly serious, struggle to enjoy things, struggle to get out of bed.
Heck, I was on Facebook when I saw a pic of a puppy and the caption, "he may only be in your life for a while, but you are his whole life," and had to restrain tears for who knows what reason.
I've started talking with people I trust about this, and I've been praying for a solution, or recovery for lack of a better word, and hoping for its haste. It's really taking its toll on me, and it's no longer just me who's being affected by it. Unfortunately, I can't afford to see a professional right now, but I can ask for your prayers for God giving me myself back.
Thanks, friends.