Kidan
Moderator
Eon--Hey I was a misguided kid. I can honestly say if I had the resources on various religious systems then that I have now, I would probably have been a pagan or practiced Zorastranism (or however that's spelt). Yet all I knew was the teachings of an old dead church. That taught nothing of real value and never specified exactly why you should be a Christian or that it is personal relationship that you have with Christ. Sunday School consisted of word finds, and the preacher never gave an alter call. IMO a church like that does more to drive Christians away from Christianity than any other thing. Even you said it Eon, you walked into a cathedral, and felt the echo's of vast power, yet the life and vitality were not actually there. So it was in this church that I would haphazardly attend. I knew that this church was wrong, I was wrong that instead of finding out the truth about Christianity (at this point instead of later) I tried to find my own spiritual path by communing with other beings. I called it demonology because I was specifically searching for non-deitic spirits that existed in connection with this plan of existance. These were not angels nor an aspect of the God head I was communiing with. If you desire to call it paganism, or wicca or even New Age Crystal movement (I read some of each, and stole what I wanted, but none of what I read fit what I was feeling) that's just dandy, but I called it demonology because that is the best term to fit what I was doing. I was an angry teen, and I was seeking spirits that fit that mold.