PLEASE pray the doctors will find something

thinkerseven

thinkerseven

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I have to be quick... I am having a lot more pain in my left arm and right abdomen. I was put on some anxiety medicine to see if it would help stress pains. I called my doctor to tell him things have gotten worse today and he said I need to come in at 3pm to see him. I am so scared and I have about 4 hours to go till I can see him. My wife is very upset because she has to stay at work so she doesnt lose her job. My best friend is taking me to the doctor when I go. I was so upset today I went to the church that rejected me and asked for help but they were short staffed so there was no one there that could help. Please keep praying for my wife to be calm and me to have found what the problem is.
Jason
 
I would cry but cannot

The doctor I went to said it was all anxiety related, so I can't do anything until Monday when my medicine doctor is back in his office. I feel embarassed and ashamed that it is something not physical. I don't know what to say except that I was ready to walk away from everything today and start a new life somewhere else but that wouldn't change anything. I missed class again tonight (I told my teacher about the chest problems). I have more to say but I just can't because it makes me more upset and then my chest hurts more.

Am I forsaken?
 
Jason, we are all praying for you here. And we all love you, but more important God loves you. You know how children punish their children because they love them, but the children dont know that they are doing out of love and then the children think that their parents hate them. Well, im not saying God is punishing you AT ALL! I cant see any reason why he would or ways that he is. I just really want to make sure that you dont get the idea that God is punishing you. But sometimes love comes in myterious forms, like punshing a child, just sometimes we cant see it. God does love you, and he is doing wonderful things for you in ur future. Just dont give up. It is hard, it is tough, but you have to hold through with it. idk if it will help but maybe a vacation to releave some stress.
Always praying
~Stc
 
thinkerseven said:
The doctor I went to said it was all anxiety related, so I can't do anything until Monday when my medicine doctor is back in his office. I feel embarassed and ashamed that it is something not physical. I don't know what to say except that I was ready to walk away from everything today and start a new life somewhere else but that wouldn't change anything. I missed class again tonight (I told my teacher about the chest problems). I have more to say but I just can't because it makes me more upset and then my chest hurts more.

Am I forsaken?
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Never! Jesus was forsaken by God so none of us ever will be. Sometimes God needs to strip away are comfort and security so that we see how much we really depend on him for everying. As hard as it is to do, trust in him and do not worry what tommarow may bring. He is with you, he loves you, and you have all of us behind you in prayer.
 
Trying so hard

I want to say sorry ahead of time if my post doesn't sound great... medicare isn't paying for my medicine and I haven't had it in two weeks and I dont know which way is up right now. I will explain all that stuff when I get better. I think my mom is coming over today to take me to the medicare office and show them they screwed up but I don't remember. I will tell you something that I never wanted to tell anyone because I am so ashamed. I have had many different oppinions over the years (since I was 18... so about 8 years now) about what is wrong with me. I don't know which one is right but they say I am bi-polar. I don't think I am because I want to be normal... I want people to respect me and like me even though I need medicine to control my moods. I don't know why but I am on disability for all this... I mean I really don't know why. I have had it since I hit the age of 18 and no one ever told me why. I have been trying so hard not to get my identity from being "ill" because I used to think I would never get better because that is the only me I could remember. My other problem that is still undiagnosed is that I have memory problems and I do not know where they come from. I can't remember what it was like to date my wife and I would cry if I could for it. I don't even remember what life was like before I started dating her... its all a big blur. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE believe me, I am not making any of this up, this is me and I have doctor notes to prove it. I am just so scared and alone right now- I feel like a little kid in a tornado with no daddy to comfort him. I feel better having got that off my chest but I am still so scared. I couldn't wake myself up this morning and when I did my wife was having a episode of her own. For me right now there is no such thing as the future because I can't think that far ahead... I am trying to plan today. I don't know what you will think of me now but please pray that something, anything happens. I am so sorry. *cries*
Jason
 
Jason,
our opinion of you will not change. you are still a brother in Christ how is going through a hard time and needs prayer. God will still love you and i will not stop praying for you. if you need anything or if you just want someone to talk to you know how to catch me.
Joey.
 
Hey Jason!

We love you bro no matter what things u may think makes people think differently of you. We all have things I am sure no one wants other to know. I know I do. But you took a BIG step and let it out. That takes guts! People are not perfect as you know but always remember no matter what God's view of you never changes! And HIS people do their best to be the same. We love you and your wife and you guys are in my Prayers!

Andrew
 
Jason, I've always struggled to understand your situation and I think I understand it a little better now. You definitely have the support and love of myself and this online community behind you, and you won't lose that no matter what you are struggling with.

I hope you have fully informed yourself about your disorder. It isn't something that's your fault, nor something you can will away. And if you don't already have a good doctor (preferrably a good, Christian doctor) you really need one of those as well.

I'm glad that I can pray for you more specifically now Jason, thank you so much for doing the difficult thing and sharing painful facts about your situation. Will be praying for you.

Paul
 
Praying,
If anything what i know about you now has only increased my respect of your faith and courage. Trust God, he never changes.
 
Jason, if you need help, you need help. That's all there is to it. It doesn't make you less of a person, or a failure, or anything like that. If you need medicine, then you need it. If you need to see a Christian counselor, then that's what you need. If you need both and specialists, too, then that's what you need.

You have to accept that you are, quite possibly, bipolar. Until you do, you will make yourself more miserable. Like everyone else has said, you can't will yourself better and we don't like or respect you any less, or care any less. If you doubt the diagnosis, get another opinion. But don't try to pretend nothing is wrong.

It sounds as if it you're saying it has gotten worse lately; with the stress you've been under, with your wife's condition, school, and job concerns, it's amazing it hasn't happened earlier. If any of your doctors don't listen to you or don't take you seriously, start the process to get a new doctor. Remember, you go to a doctor because they know stuff, but you are the one hiring them, even if it's through Medicare. If they don't respect you and care, find someone else.

And of course, I'll continue praying for you and your family.
 
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I am overwhelmed by your support. I don't know whatelse to say right now. I am having a hard time but I think I am near the bottom where God works best. I went through a bit today where I had decided I didn't believe in God anymore. My wife helped me see that I just needed a break from all things church. I won't be going to church any time soon but that is better than saying I am never going back. I wanted to give a word of thanks to Ducky for talking to me today- it must have been so hard to hear the ungodly things I said but you stuck with me... Thank you.
Jason
 
Jason, at the age of 6 or 8 or 5 or something i was diognosied with schziphinaia (the mental disorder where you hear, feel, see, smell, taste things that arn't there), the only thing was for someone, my age to have that is so rare that they thought it was bi-polor. I was also diogonsed with depression, and a handfull of other stuff and i didn't know what was going on. I'm on lots of meds today and I'm not ashamed of it. I see a pshycoligist (the person who presibes meds) every 3 months or so! I am now 19 and I made it through alot of tough and confusing and scary times. There is no reason that you can not mak it through. No matter how tough or scary or doubtfull or what ever your going through, God's got a plan for you, and he ain't gonna drop it! Maybe what your going through is to be able to help another going thru what your going through now. I know that God seems pretty distant, if real at all, to you, but he's right there wanted to help. Don't give up, it's not worth it. You will look back on this and laugh (doesn't look like it now, but it will, trust me). I am praying, and i know, honestly and truly, that you CAN make it.
 
RubberDucky said:
no problem Jason, i wont give up on you as long as God doesnt.
Joey
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thus meaning Ducky will never give up.. cause God will NEVER give up. Its one of those few occasions where you deal in absloutes and not be a sith.. sry, Starwars geek had to come in... :)


Still praying for you! You CAN do it
 
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