Ever since I got a job a month ago, I've been slowly straying from the Lord. I try to get back on track but I just fall back down. I don't read the bible as much as I should and I really try to and when I do, most of the time I don't "feel" him.
I know we walk by faith and not fickle feelings but I just can't help but feel as if I'm getting no where.. I just can't seem to get back on track even though I really want to in my heart. It seems like the only times I serve the Lord like I should be is when he has to break me down so that I have no choice but to serve him... and I don't want that anymore, I want to serve him willingly and happily, not out of desperation.
I feel as if he has been very lenient but slowly everything is falling apart, going back into that place of desperation.... just please pray for me that I get back on track, on FIRE for Jesus. I want to just sit and read the bible all day but it's difficult when I can't feel his presence. I don't know if this is a test or what(I started following him in Late December, I'm new to all of this) but it is quite frustrating... I know it's my fault and not his though.
Please also pray that I have a comfortable time at work as I step out of my comfort zone and that God will bless that place with a spirit of peace so that there is no gossip and we all actually work like a TEAM.
And I apologize, I feel sort of guilty that I only come on this website when I need a prayer or when I have a question about the bible... sorry.
I know we walk by faith and not fickle feelings but I just can't help but feel as if I'm getting no where.. I just can't seem to get back on track even though I really want to in my heart. It seems like the only times I serve the Lord like I should be is when he has to break me down so that I have no choice but to serve him... and I don't want that anymore, I want to serve him willingly and happily, not out of desperation.
I feel as if he has been very lenient but slowly everything is falling apart, going back into that place of desperation.... just please pray for me that I get back on track, on FIRE for Jesus. I want to just sit and read the bible all day but it's difficult when I can't feel his presence. I don't know if this is a test or what(I started following him in Late December, I'm new to all of this) but it is quite frustrating... I know it's my fault and not his though.
Please also pray that I have a comfortable time at work as I step out of my comfort zone and that God will bless that place with a spirit of peace so that there is no gossip and we all actually work like a TEAM.
And I apologize, I feel sort of guilty that I only come on this website when I need a prayer or when I have a question about the bible... sorry.